When I stand before God at the end of my life,
I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say,
"I used everything You gave me."
~Erma Bombeck

July 19, 2010

Monday musings...


Hello, hello! Surprise! I am still here! I'd apologize for being gone, but sometimes life takes precedence over my little blog.

This past weekend, I finally sorted through the boxes I received from Arizona containing some of my mother's stuff. I sent a lot of pictures of my daughters to my mother over the years. I never printed these pictures for myself and now, they have all come back to me. Scrapbooking should come easy.

I found the above picture of my daughters at ages 4 and 2 at the Houston Livestock Show and Rodeo waiting for their pony ride. I just love how they are both standing the same. When I ran across the picture, I thought of my own sister and how now that Mom is gone, she is the only one on this planet who truly knows me. I am so thankful that my daughters have each other. There is nothing like a sister's love. My brother and I only talk about once a year. In the 10 years I have lived in Houston, he has visited once and that was for my wedding. Gifts arrive once a year at Christmas time and my youngest daughter last year asked who Uncle Justin and Aunt Liz are. Makes me more than a little sad. Of course I could make more of an effort myself.

Speaking of mom. I feel there is only so much I can blog about her and how I am missing her before people grow tired of hearing it. Same goes for real life. I just have to move on and sometimes find ways of working through the pain on my own. Some people don't understand, some might be tired of hearing it. But it is still less than a year and some days the pain of losing one of my very best friends, the person who knew me the most is just breathtaking.

Some weeks (like last week) I miss my mother so much that I can only focus on my family, creative endeavors are out the door entirely. And then it passes as quickly as it came and I am ready to go again. I am at that point now... ready to go again. I have been working on some new items for the Etsy shop and have some other items I received in my mother's boxes that I will be sharing over the next few weeks. Maybe telling a little more of the sweet memories will help.


3 comments:

  1. There is a woman in my Bible study who lost her mom a couple of years ago. She still gets emotional about it every week. I don't think there is a rule that says you can only grieve so long.

    I am sorry you lost your mom. Really, we are too young to experience that... at any age.

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  2. That is just a treasure of a photo of the girls you found.

    It is so very hard to lose a parent. I understand only too well.

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  3. tell away girl! keep the memories alive!

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