When I stand before God at the end of my life,
I would hope that I would not have a single bit of talent left, and could say,
"I used everything You gave me."
~Erma Bombeck

September 6, 2010

Mondays with Mom... Happy Birthday...

This picture is how I choose to remember my Mom.
I was about 6 and she was about 29.

She would have been 63 years old today.

I haven't much to write.
I knew this day was coming.
It has been almost a year since her passing.

I figured it was just a date, but... it's not.
Birthdays are significant.
This was the day God gifted the world
with the presence of this beautiful woman.

I miss her.

Today I will be honest as a gift to Mom and myself.
My heart aches.

No one can replace the void she has left in my heart.
But I know she would fill that void right up to overflowing if she could.
That's just how she was.

Sometimes I am a little angry.
I think it is unfair that she is gone and the whole world continues to turn.
But I have learned that this is a part of life,
the part I wish I could skip.
But I can't and so I hold her memory close
and if I am still and I listen, I can hear her voice telling me,
just like a few days before God took her back... it is all okay.

It is all okay.

Happy birthday my sweet, sweet Mama...

5 comments:

  1. Bless your heart. I hope you find comfort today. Hugs!

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  2. I lost my father in December of last year. He entered his finest hour on Dec 13th and fell asleep in the arms of God. I know what it is to miss a parent. There is nothing that fills the gap. I am thinking of you and making mention of you in my prayers. I hope you find a memory of your mother that makes you smile this week.

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  3. Dear Lanie,

    First, I wanted to thank you for joining me at Create With Joy. I have read through several of your posts and love your blog as well - I am following you back!

    Next, I wanted to let you know how sorry I am for your loss. Your mom is so beautiful and I think you for sharing her memomory with us. I am also dealing with loss, and I can so relate to the feelings you shared. I'm coming up on my first blogaversary; I started Create With Joy several months after my younger sister died, in part, to help move forward even in the midst of my loss and my grief. You are the first person I am sharing that with!

    I pray that God will make his presence known to you in the coming days and will bring you comfort in your moments of need.

    Hugs
    Ramona
    http://create-with-joy.blogspot.com

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  4. Came across your blog today...

    Your Mother's photos are so pretty. The one when she was 29, I can't stop looking at~ beautiful!!
    I know your pain, I loss Daddy, this November 24, it will be 5 years. I look at his photo, that I hanging above my computer desk, everyday, all the time. I miss him more than I can say...
    The Lord will help you cope with your loss. He'll take care of you.
    Tina
    www.cherryhillcottage.typepad.com

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  5. Hi Lanie... our moms will always be in our hearts and the pain may leave us but the "wanting" never does....It's been 12 years and I still smell her... So sorry for your loss.....
    My moms photos are everywhere in my home.. silly photos, but the ones I remember her as Mom...
    Thank you for your visit and your sweet words.
    Sandy

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