Okay, so. I have taken a little break from everything for a few months. About 3 to be more exact. After having an unfortunately ugly fallout with someone I thought was a friend, I have chosen to step back and reevaluate my relationships. My real friends have been very patient with me while I go through this process. I am so blessed to have understanding, concerned, wonderful women in my life.
I have also been thinking about my other personal relationships with my family. My husband, daughters and son. I never realized how much I wanted to control them until I recognized what I was doing and am catching myself to stop the madness. The other day, this was posted on facebook and it just fits what I have been going through so well.
To "let go" does not mean to stop caring. It means I can't do it for someone else.
To "let go" is not to cut myself off. It's the realization that I can't control another.
To "let go" is to admit powerlessness, which means the outcome is not in my hands.
To "let go" is not to try to change or blame another. It's to make the most of myself.
To "let go" is not to care for, but to care about.
To "let go" is not to fix, but to be supportive.
To "let go" is not to judge, but to allow another to be a human being.
To "let go" is not to be in the middle, arranging all the outcomes, but to allow others to affect their own destinies.
To "let go" is not to deny, but to accept.
To "let go" is not to nag, scold, or argue, but instead to search out my own shortcomings and correct them.
To "let go" is not to adjust everything to my desires, but to take each day as it comes and cherish myself in it.
To "let go" is not to regret the past, but to grow and live for the future.
To "let go" is to fear less and to love more.
~ Author Unknown~
So, I am back. Posts may be sporadic as Kyle is now 8 months old and on the go. The girls are out of school for the summer and I am trying to make this summer more fun than last year's. I was pregnant and it was extremely hot. So bless my little girls, they didn't get to do much at all last summer. So far we are off to a fantastic start to this one.
